I can't believe this man was our President for 8 yrs!

Watch this video and you will understand my frustration:

I love how George W. Bush attempts to be clever.

Idiot.

Love Conquers All....

I have recently deviated from the primary purpose of my blog; to express my views on love and human emotion, to relay some of my experiences that have shaped me into the young, jaded individual I've become, & to share how I applied what I've learned to the development my personal philosophy of life. There are many reasons why I haven't posted about myself in a while. 2009 really caught me off guard, however, it left major room for growth. I thought because I was officially legal (aka 21) I could travel across the states doing whatever (or whoever<---damn mess but partially true lol) But what I never expected was that I'd fall, not once, but twice, especially in such a short time period. Furthermore I've never expected to fall for the second individual at all. And today this is why I write this blog. [This is actually taking a huge bite out of my ego. I mean HUGE]

Love Conquers All

You meet someone. You think they're cool. You build a friendship. Subsequently, trust develops. Then occasionally, somewhere down the line, love emerges. Sometimes this love is purely the love shared between two best friends who would die for one another as if they were blood. Other times this love is deeper. Love that is indescribable. The type of love that makes you feel as if your floating on cloud nine. The love that is both your biggest strength and biggest weakness. Love that is sought by each and every individual on the face of this earth. I had that love, and it dissipated almost as quickly as it flourished. But that story has already been explained (check tag, "Personal Philosophy").

During the course of falling out of love last summer, I began falling for another. It was almost as if she pulled me out of the misery preoccupying my thoughts. She helped me believe love was real when I believed it was chemical process that makes one delusional. She helped me see not every female I'd ever come across was selfish. She helped me realize there were genuine, caring people in the world. Slowly but surely, I fell for her. Perhaps I was extremely vulnerable because of my emotional state during the time. The only dilemma is, I didn't feel or see it coming. I knew...after it all fell apart.

When it fell, it plummeted.

Today is the first time I'm actually writing anything about this situation. I've attempted to brush aside many times now. She and I indirectly "talked" for almost 2 months, so I assumed I'd be completely over it after a week or two.  Never in a million years could I have imagined I'd be greatly hurt by a stranger. I keep asking myself how is it possible someone I was never with affects me more than the first person I ever fell in love with. I harbored feelings for her, yet because I was still somewhat caught up in my ex, I wasn't aware of these feelings. When things fell apart because she messed up then started behaving as a complete jerk towards me. I became cognizant of how I really felt toward her. When she suddenly cut me off, and the pain actualized, reality set in.

I forgave her a long time ago for the events that occurred. I just don't understand why I continue to ponder over her, even just a little bit. After several months I've determined these feelings must have been very strong. She is the first person I felt I had a true connection. My friends say I'm very picky about my women, and I usually chase after the same "type" of women. This female was not my type. I fell for her personality first and then, as a result, I began to find her attractive.

I still get upset over the situation. Before she helped me understand there are good people in this world. Now, she reinforces my beliefs that women are selfish. I've subconsciously built a sturdier wall around my heart than ever before. I'm convinced I'll never have the capacity to love again. And after having my heart broken twice in one year, I'm also convinced no one will ever genuinely love me. Insecurities, insecurities, insecurities. My ego is somewhat tarnished and I feel vulnerable publishing this, but I just need to write.  I have more I could say, but I'm a bit frustrated at the moment. But through it all there is still one thing I still want. I'll keep that to myself fow no.

Love Conquers All.... especially when we least expect it.

-Free

JFK Airport... Are you serious?!?!? "C'mon Son!"

A Boston radio station has revealed audio of a child directing planes at New York's JFK airport. What the hell was the traffic controller thinking? Maybe sometimes it's ok for employees bring their kids to work, but seriously, I don't think a child should direct an airplane. Let's consider all the hysteria surround airplanes.  Newark Aiport, experience not just one, but two security breaches. A major Terrorist Threat in December was thwarted due to the terrorist's mistakes. The traffic controller should take his job more seriously.

"C'Mon SON!"