Monday, January 10, 2011

Ostensible 10/10/2010

There she was across the corridor.
Despite the heavy crowd in the room,
I immediately distinguished her silhouette.
The beating of my heart ceased
Leisurely, she made her way toward me.

I didn’t move.

I didn’t blink.

Just observed.

There she was
Tall,
Brown,
Beautiful.
A smile so captivating.
Her presence alluring.
Her charm enthralling
each person she glided past.

Before me she stopped
Smiling from ear to ear
While conversing with a friend.

Nonetheless, it seemed only she & I stood
 in our animated setting.

She consumed all my attention
Failing to respond
as I was being spoken to by a friend.
Because I was lost in my introspection

Over her.

Contemplated quickly glimpsing away
Before she became cognizant of my fixation.
But my heart prevented me from shifting a muscle
My arms remained folded,
My feet never took a step.
And my eyes remained firmly set on her.

She glanced at me.

For a few seconds,
Time stood still,
And I thought nothing at all.

She looked back to regard her friend
Then gracefully attended her eyes towards me
only to realize
mine never lingered from her.
She became entirely attentive to my existence.

My breathing stopped....

The way it stopped the day I first set eyes on her,

My heart skipped...

The way it skipped two beats when she smiled at me,

My heart breathed life...

The way it breathed life again when she touched me.


But my disingenuous heart,
Sought refuge from my pain
By exploiting my thoughts
It found pleasure deluding my mind
Into believing ostensible illusions.

For this woman was
A Stranger.

Simply
A tangible resemblance of the female
I never stopped loving.

Then she vanished before me
She drifted to the opposing side of the lobby,
Her hand now cradled in the palm of her boyfriend.
And disappeared into the New York night life.

Suddenly, I remembered to breathe again.

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